Finally, there is feedback on the Hollywood pitch program. What an experience that was. I always like to be first in everything. Ever since I got married and moved from the letter K to the letter A, I have gotten used to being called first. Being called up front early removes the possibility of deepening anxiety and prolonged nervous reactions and if I am good, I set the standard for others. Once it is over I can chill out. Those three possibilities have defined my actions since the name change 43 years ago. It is an awesome responsibility and one which has helped me grow as a person.
Online feedback does not put me first. We all got our feedback emails today and I am happy with mine. We were mostly amateurs trying to do something unique for the first time ever. So from that perspective, I will have been in the first group who attended the event. My holiday trip fulfilled a childhood dream, one of my first. Writing was also a childhood dream fulfilled. Having even one person in Hollywood consider my book worth bringing to screen is beyond anything I could imagine……..another first.
As I stood at the base of the MGM building in Hollywood and watched the sun glint off its windows, the view left me feeling like a kid. It is much like how I felt the first time I stood in Disneyland and saw Mickey Mouse except now I am an adult and for the first time ever, I see and feel what it means to achieve something with sustained conscious effort, disregarding reward but doing it first and foremost because it is just the right thing.